Two of her staffs got suspended effective from today, soon to be sacked. But what my boss says, what he has to do, he needs to do it. I sincerely feel for them.
Sometimes I wish that I have the courage to throw away everything, and do nothing because I'm tired of pleasing people and becoming that perfect person that everyone wants me to be.
But I do not want to be a person, keep searching happiness at the wrong places. A friend close to heart, startled me when she commented, " You've been running away isn't it? Going overseas and all." I am surrounded with so many people; to keep them company, them keeping me company. Hanging out with people at work and people outside generally.
Things are going so fast for me right now. I'm worried that I might be losing my identity, yearning for that old familiar things and faces. Damn, I don't even have time to talk to my parents sometimes.
She said that I need to put a pause in my life and do real reflections, retrospecting what have been happening so far. Angry or sad, I'm good at putting them at the back of my mind as I just keep moving on.
I'm scared Ju. I'm so damn scared.
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